So why, exactly, is the sky blue?

I need to study well and P.W.F.C, J2 is taking a toll on me.

I noticed, that almost everything in this world is not Michellekon-sized. The last time I bought a slice of watermelon for 6ocents at Yew Tee Foodcourt, my goodness, the thing was gigantic. Huge, I tell you. So much juice and I can't eat it properly w/o getting any juice on my face and hands. Haha.

And it's not that I don't eat much, you know. You people think I always don't eat much 'cos of the amount of food that is left over in my plate but have you ever thought my stomach is much smaller than yours (I think)? I eat just what's enough for me 'cos the portions of food is always oh-so-much. Even my uniform is not Michellekon-sized. Why!

Though I seem to be complaining much, I've never looked at myself as too small for this world (at 39kg and 155cm), 'cos I've got a Larger-than-Life God. Have you ever stood far, far away from the MRT station and looked at the people waiting for the train, going down the escalator and walking up and down? They look like ants, man! I'm so in awe of God that though I'm smaller than an ant to Him, yet He lavishes His love on me so, I see His love in my life every single day, no kidding!

Everyday, without fail, I'm reminded of His wonderful, beautiful love in more ways than I can say. And then I have reason to push on, to love the things I hate, to not give up on myself, simply because of this beautiful love.

God, I know you love hearing this as much as anyone else. Father, I love You, I love You, I love You! :)

You mean after 11 years of Chinese education, that's it?

It was quite sudden. Stealthy, without a trace.
I am, of course, referring to the seizure of the study of Chinese.
I have just come to a realisation that I will never be studying Chinese as a subject again.
I guess it is true, then, that once you've lost something, you'll treasure it much more.

I am sad to say, after just 5 months of not using Chinese (much),

I have lost touch.

It's quite a sad case, since my ethnic race is Chinese. And worse, people tell me I speak Chinese funnily. It's not that I want to, you know! Chinese -- or Mandarin, more specifically -- is a language whereby I feel comfortable speaking in. Really! I'm not kidding!

In the past, I used to live in Ipoh, Malaysia. So in Malaysia, they have Chinese schools, Malay schools, and English schools. My parents, seeing that I had zero knowledge in Chinese, and being the forward-looking parents they were, put me in a Chinese school. Major culture shock. Everybody speaking Cantonese which was alien language compared to Chinese. But being the adaptive me (:D), I picked it up soon enough. Ting Yat Mm Ooi Fan Ohkay! (just kidding)

Maybe it was the experience in Malaysia, where I somehow led the 'kampung' community lifestyle, where everybody spoke Chinese and Cantonese. Maybe it's because I used to have friends who would speak Chinese with me. Maybe it's all of these reasons put together and much more -- Chinese simply makes me feel at home. (I do speak Chinese with my parents at home, FYI.) When I hold a conversation in Chinese with another person, it's because I feel close enough to the person to do so. Doesn't mean I don't talk to you in Chinese so I'm not close to you!

Just that, if circumstances allow, if it's a good chat at night in a familiar heartland coffehouse, or just a simple conversation over a meal, I feel good chatting in Mandarin.

That's why, I am quite sad that I no longer speak/write as fluently (not that I did it very fluently in the past. The keywords are "as fluently".)

I guess all the Civics and Moral Education lessons in primary school about how not to lose our Chinese roots have not gone to waste.

Acronym World

My Common Test is starting in two weeks and I'm starting to F.T.H. I really think I C.M.I since I'm not consistent in all my tests and assignments and C.S.S when studying :( I hope I will P.W.F.C for all my subjects and not F.M.T.

C.T.A,
Bye

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F.T.H -- Feel The Heat
C.M.I -- Cannot Make It
C.S.S -- Cannot Sit Still
P.W.F.C -- Pass With Flying Colors
F.M.T -- Fail Miserably Terribly
C.T.A -- Cheers To All