Looking Forward

At every point of time in your life, you are surely looking forward to something.

An old grandma living in the old folks’ home. She is looking forward to Sunday where her grandson comes to visit her, to hold her hand. That touch that gives the reassurance that she can count on him whenever she needs him. She looks forward to the kiss he plants on her forehead towards the end of his visit, telling her that he will be back next Sunday. She spends the whole week looking forward to the next Sunday that he will come again.

A student in the classroom. He is staring at the clock mounted against the cold, hard concrete wall of the classroom, looking at the seconds tick by and wondered why does 60 seconds take so long to pass. His thoughts drown out the teacher’s droning and his mind is on all the things that he is going to do after school.

A girl after her first date. She is watching TV on the couch with her handphone beside her but not really paying attention to the programme at all. Talk about xin bu zai yan. The movie is the weekly late-night horror movie, but she is smiling to herself and looking forward to the time where her boyfriend would call her. She takes a glance at her handphone every few seconds, but not trying to be too obvious. The boyfriend calls and they chat for 2 and a half hours, she puts down the phone with a mega-watt grin she couldn’t hide even if she tried, looking forward to her next date.

An accountant working for the bank. Work starts to pile higher and higher, he’s up to his neck in all the accounts that needs to be worked out. Why, he sleeps with numbers dancing in his head and don’t ask him to count sheep because that’s the last thing he would do. For this fella, he’s looking forward to that vacation in the Bahamas together with his wife; he can almost feel the sand in between his toes right now, the feel of the cool, blue sea against his skin and the breeze playing with his hair. The diving suit has his name written all over it. He can almost hear all these lifeless things beckoning to him. Just you wait and see, he was going to indulge himself.

Maybe you are one of them, maybe you are not. But all of us look forward to something at any point of time in life. Maybe you might be looking forward to the next episode of Prison Break (will they ever get out?). Maybe you are looking forward to the posting of your new school. Maybe you’re looking forward to what the future may bring, what God has in store. Maybe you are looking forward to 10 years later, what would you become? Who would you be with? Most importantly, did you get your driver’s license after your first try to prove all those stinkin’ guys WRONG? Well, that’s all I am looking forward to.

But I know that I have a big God who won’t disappoint me maybe like how that grandson would disappoint his grandma after starting a family, neglecting her, and even found her a nuisance. Or that student who played too much until he failed all his tests. Or that girl, the boyfriend found her too clingy and broke up with her, leaving her heart-broken. Or the accountant at the bank, after his holiday he came back with even more and more work that sleeping 4 hours a day is too much!

Man will disappoint but God never fails, I’m glad I have someOne that I can lean fully on so that I will not worry even if my whole world comes crashing down.

God, I’m glad I have You.